Best Friends who neveradmitted their love

So my best friend and I have known each other a little over four years. We first met in fifth grade. I liked him a little in the middle of the year and then I started disliking him again. Sixth grade I despised him so much. Seventh grade we became close and talked a lot. He found out that I am a total tomboy and love video games and all that other stuff. I actually thought I was falling for him. He then asked me out and I said no. I had no idea what I was thinking so now I kind of regret it. It never was awkward after that. He came over a lot during the summer because he lives near by. It was my last time seeing him before school started and I was fine with that. We went into my room and just hung out. We went into the closet, I don't know why but it is someplace where I can think and some of my friends agree with me. Anyway we went in there and because it is not the biggest closet in the world we were literally almost on top of each other, but I didn't care. We stayed in there for quite a while. I wanted to put my head on his shoulder, but I didn't. His parents called him back because they were leaving, so he helped me up and we exited the closet and I said goodbye. And to my surprise he kissed me on the cheek and said goodbye. To tell you the truth, I didn't really mind. I kind of liked it. When school came we never mentioned what happened or anything that happened. We slowly started to separate till sports came. I am a runner and I am not very fond of it and neither is he. He likes basketball more. Anyway we were the only two who knew each other on the team so we talked and I got to know him more. But this girl hates me because we are friends and gives me the evil eye a lot. Personally, I think he likes her too. And every year our school goes to a hotel and people go and just walk around and have fun. But he decided to ditch me and go talk to five other girls. I tried to talk to him at the ice cream shop and he ignored me! I am really loud too! So after the field trip I started ignoring him and talking to other guys until he got fustrated and asked me why I was acting like this and I told him and he said he was sorry. Things were okay after that, but thanksgiving is coming and I want to go to another school. I asked him what he would do if he were in my footsteps, but he refused to. He says he wants me to stay with him for high school and college, but he doesn't understand that that is my future he is talking about. I would love to stay with him, but I couldn't my life. So I stayed and suffered another six months for him. But not all of the six months was suffering. He asked me out again and I said yes. It was the best five months ever and I will never regret it! So graduation came up and he begged me to go to his high school, but we both knew that wasn't going to happen so he kissed me goodbye and broke up with me. I cried a little. Now I miss him so much and hope to get in touch soon.